Yesterday...

Yesterday was Friday, the end of yet ANOTHER rough week. I don't why I suffer the most at dialysis. No one else is crying or moaning... And I'm the youngest there:(

Yesterday, I was hoping they'd use my fistula but the top poke was very hard to find because it's deep so by the time they got it in BOTH lines clotted. It was too much to watch!! As the tech disconnected the lines, the blood just dangled in mid-air like jello-ish. YIKES!!! They ended up having to use the port/catheter in my chest again which beeped every 10 minutes. #irritating

I'm beginning to notice a stench about myself and I can't stand it even more when I have to go potty. The tech said dialysis patients suffer from UREMIA and that I should Google it when I can. I just remembered...

Uremia (uremic syndrome) is a serious complication of chronic kidney disease and acute kidney injury (also known as acute renal failure). It occurs when urea and other waste products build up in the body because the kidneys are unable to eliminate them. These substances can become poisonous (toxic) to the body if they reach high levels. Link

Found this too:

"Uraemia is usually a very gentle way to die...increasing drowsiness,
weakness, a little confusion, coma and drift away. Cancer ,too, can be that way too..."

I smell like everyone else there at dialysis ⏩ like DEATH!  Okay, maybe that was a little DRAMA QUEEN of me

Here's hoping for a great weekend filled with LOVE & laughter, good times. Gonna make dinner for our childhood friends moving back up here to Utah.

Signing Off,
❤Faga